Friday, June 6, 2008

Friday June 6th, 2008 !!! Graduation!!!! I am done!

I Can't believe its here!  The day has finally arrived, we as a group of 270 yogis have survived Bikram's  Torture Chamber in every sense of the way.   I have learned so much about myself, others and survival!  Its been great in so many ways, learned so much  and so many things I didn't appreciate much.  In midst of all that.. I know for sure who I am and what defines me.  In the toughest of time, I realized I never ever gave up my core values, and that's what comforted me.  In the philosophy of the boot camp of breaking us down and rebuilding us up again.  I stood firm and knew that parts of my life were not going to be broken down.  My faith defines me and has gotten me through this time.   But yes I did learn a lot, about letting go... feelings that we use as a security blanket, sometimes hold us back to enjoy life to its fullest.  Forgiving is one of the best thing I was able to do on this journey.  Forgive myself and others.... not because the world has done me so wrong, but because we are human and forgiveness is the core of our existence!

As I  enter into the REAL world out of the YOGA  BUBBLE!  I am excited to share the new me and cautious to know the I might view life with different set of glasses..... 

Here is a quote from the Autobiography of the yogi.. that really defines my journey....

" Human life is the best with sorrow until we know how to tune in with the Divine Will, whose right course is often baffling to the egoistic intelligence.  God bears the burden of the cosmos; He alone can give unerring counsel"

Much love to you all!

Wednesday, June 4, 2008

Wondering where I have been... Week 7, 8 & 9

I am still alive and sort of kicking.... Its almost over in a day and half!!! Yeah... the past three weeks have been HELL WEEK!!!! in all ways....   Both body and mind started to give up and it almost seemed that this treacherous journey will never end!  I stopped e-mailing, blogging and all contact with the outside world!  ( except for talking to the family , that also every other day, really short)  Just trying to survive was absolutely draining my energy.  I totally gave myself to the yoga bubble that I am in!  It took too much energy to think of anyone or anything other than my own physical pain and mental trials.  In week 8, I was hit with flu along with 100 or so other yogis... we are so depleted that we have no immunity.  Still fighting the cold.  No rest for the weary.. I was still required to follow the schedule.   Talk about self realization!  There is so much to write and tell you all... but again, hanging by a fine fine thread with 4 hours of sleep at best.... Don't worry I am hanging in strong.. relatively speaking.. counting down hours and minutes..... So my dear friend thanks for coming along with me on this journey.  I will talk to you all when I get back!  And Yes I have much to tell!  Still loving my yoga!

Hugs to you all